Monday, July 12, 2010

Some days I want to be 23 too.

Don’t get me wrong, I am 23, but most days I don’t feel 23.

I look at the majority of the people I was friends with in high school and I feel like I must really be ages older than them. They’re out partying, traveling, making big plans, and just free. They have no real big worries and responsibilities just yet. True, at this age they are starting to get some, but not the kinds you have to plan your life and whole future around. The people I went to school with, for the most part, are just now getting into serious relationships, getting engaged, or getting married. Only a few have any children and for the most part it’s just one. A few more are newly pregnant.

I feel so tied down compared to them.

Don’t get me wrong. I love John and my children. Some days though I just wish I could be a normal 23 year old. One who can go out and just do what I like. Buy myself something without thinking first, “Do we need diapers this week? Zach really needs new shoes. Ryan was gotten almost too tall for all his shorts.” I’d love to just be able to think about what I want, what I need.

But this is my life and I do love it. It started 7 years ago when I met John, and one pretty fall day we decided to have sex and ended up with Zach.


Nicole Montgomery said...

Boy oh boy do I relate. There are days, not too too often where I just want to run away, not forever, just a few days, to be a "normal" 23 y/o. Just a few days to remind me that I do have it good. I look at my 26 year old sister (one child) and see how much time she spends hanging out, going out, and shopping, and I miss it. I miss not having to worry ab my every little move.

I look at it this way, when the people we are talking ab are in their 40s and 50s and are tied down, we will be able to do all those things as well. ;-]

Nikki said...

I don't think I know a mom who doesn't have days like this. I have them very randomly and less now that I'm a bit older. When Lane was a baby though and all my friends were clubbing and stuff, I coveted their lives.
I'm 33 now, and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Lol, I LOVE my kids, but I'll be very happy to have some me time and some me money. ;)

Heather said...

I am now following your blog. I think I landed upon it during the Lisa Rollins Controversy. Even at 28, I still have friends who can just go anywhere on a whim without planning the day out with strollers, bottles and diapers or worrying about preparing my toddlers cut up foods days in advance. Such is the life of being a mom....but this is what I've wanted and I love it. :)

ComfyMom~Stacey said...

the neat thing is, when you are 40 your children will be grown & you will be in a great place life wise and young enough to enjoy it. I was still in college at 23, married at 28 & had my first child at 35. I will be in my late 50s before my children are grown

Amanda said...

I have days like that...days when you just want to have some time to yourself, NOT doing everything for everyone else.