We won’t talk about that.

Yeah, the trip… it was a nightmare, so we won’t get into that. Not one little bit.

I missed the kiddos like crazy (though not why trip was bad), and by the end even Zach was missing me too. It was painful talking to Ryan at bedtime each night, he always sounded on the verge of tears. I got home late last Thursday so the boys didn’t know I was home until they got up Friday morning. Ryan cried a little, told me he missed me so so much, and kept hugging me. Zach just kept saying “I can’t believe you’re finally home!” I saw Belly later in the morning when I got to my mom’s. I don’t think the trip was too good for Belly. She’s been very clingy, was even more so before she got sick. (low fever, green snotty nose, and cough – same as me now) She freaks out if I even walk out of the room without her, and bedtime and naps have gotten to be a terror. She screams – a lot.

But I am so happy to be home with John and the kiddos, I missed them way way way more than I thought I would. I called John Monday night crying saying I was ready to come home. And not just for the missing them factor, the whole trip was just bad. I haven’t decided if I’ll share any pictures from it yet. Hell, I might just delete them all and rid myself of the memory.

(Oh the video is from this afternoon – I just felt like sharing it lol)

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An evolution.

 

Pat myself on the back for a job well done.

Secrets and bribery.

(This conversation takes place as the boys were supposed to be cleaning their room. Zach is in the bedroom with the door open and Ryan is in the bathroom going potty with the door open. I have the hallway door open so I can hear them “clean.”)

“Hey Ryan!”

“What?”

“I’ll give you these two men if you clean the room by yourself.”

“OK!”

“But it has to be a secret. You can’t tell Mommy.”

“OK!”

“Boys, you know you’re yelling and I can hear you right?”

“Never mind Ryan.”

“But Mommy! I want the men!”

“No Ryan.”

“That’s not fair!”

“Neither is Zach taking advantage of you.”

“It’s not like I was going to make him do it for free.”

(conversation from October 20, 2010, picture from October 4, 2010)

Saturday Snapshots (10/30)

Deep conversations.

“Zach, do I really want to go to Heaven when I die?”

“Well, duh, everyone wants to go to Heaven.”

“Why?”

“Because God is in Heaven, and Jesus. And good people. Good people want to go to Heaven.”

“But I’m not always good.”

“Do you want to be good?"

(silence for a minute or two)

“No, sometimes it’s boring.”

“It’s not boring. Boring is being grounded to your room.”

(another moment or two of silence)

“Yeah, that’s boring. I guess I want to be good and go to Heaven then.”

(conversation from October 22, 2010 on the ride from school, picture from September 22, 2010)

Jedi or Sith?

“Bella, are you a Jedi?” (me)

“No Mommy, Bella’s on the dark side. She can’t be a Jedi.” (Ryan)

“Oh Bella, are you a Sith then?” (me)

*NO! I no dark side* (Bella is thinking)

“Sorry Bella, you have to, cause I’m the Jedi.” (Ryan)

*Mommy! Ryan I not dark side! I be Jedi too!* (Bella is thinking)

(pictures from October 15, 2010)

Well my blog readers

I’m going to miss you all.

For those that don’t know I’m going to be out of town for about the next two weeks. I leave in a few hours to go on to my grandmother’s, and in the morning we leave for Phoenix. It’s a three day drive from here to there, and once we get there we have to go to my cousin’s graduation and then help her pack and get her stuff loaded to bring her home.

I love to travel… but not with kids, so this will be a rare treat. Before having kids I often went on trips with my grandmother since we have a lot of the same interests and hobbies, and I’ve really missed that. It’ll be a little difficult for me since my grandmother is no fan of smoking, and I won’t be able to smoke in the rental car, but she’ll forgive my first day or two of testiness while my body gets used to a lower nicotine supply. Who knows, maybe it’ll make me finally end up quitting altogether.

I’m undoubtedly going to miss my brats like crazy. I already miss them and right now they’re only ten minutes away at my mom’s. I don’t even want to think about how it will be without John for that long a period of time. We haven’t been separated for any real length of time in the past seven and a half years we’ve been together. As some of my older readers know I have gone out of town for a week before without the kiddos, but never have I spent more than a day or two apart from John. I think that will be harder on me than the reduction of nicotine.

I’m really really missing the Belly right now. It hurts inside of me to know I’ll be away from her so long. When I was out of town for a week last year she was so little she wouldn’t really notice. And I’m sure for her, even now at a year and a half, she won’t notice too much, but she does have a hard time being away from me, and I from her.

I’m going to set up a few blog posts to run automatically during my absence. They won’t be an every day thing, more of an every other or every three days type. Just depends on how many I can get done.

I’ll be back sometime around the 4th or 5th, and should see you all again sometime around then!